Tuesday, April 21, 2009

83 - Bright spots that come and go...

Last Wednesday, after our yet-another confusing report of good progesterone and low estrogen, I was talking to my mentor at the university about this pregnancy. She knows the details. She knows the crazy number game we've been playing. After this last conversation she placed her hands on my shoulders and said "Christina, this pregnancy doesn't surprise me in the slightest. You do everything your own way. You are never in the "normal" range in anything you do - be it on the good side of normal or the bad side. Why would the pregnancy be any different?".

Yesterday, I realized how right she was as I stared at the ultrasound screen and saw bright spots come and go from our peppercorn within that little black sac.

We saw a strong heartbeat and the measurement was good - a few days behind, but right on target if this was a late implanter. I know we are not out of the woods, but for the first time since this started I accepted the "congratulations" as we checked out of our ob/gyn's office without rolling my eyes and making a sarcastic comment to Alex.

We are in shock. I was going to recap the beta numbers, but instead I am just going to post our first ultrasound pic this afternoon. We are not going to look back on this. As of now, we are just any other pregnancy with a heartbeat. I really expected to see an ectopic or an empty sac or a sac with a fetal pole and no heartbeat, but not this. What was my profound reaction to this little miracle? I just kept saying "Holy shit!" over and over as I stared at the screen. Classy.

I'll post the pic this afternoon. Thank you all for keeping some hope about this when I had absolutely none.

Next - another ultrasound in two weeks and weening off the drugs.

4/20/2009

19 comments:

Sky said...

I've been on the edge of my seat waiting for this update and it could not have been any better.

Heartbeats are a good thing in a little spec. Holy shit is right - and how sweet it is!

CONGRATULATIONS Christina & Alex!!!

DAVs said...

A HA!!! Remember when I told you that having a frozen embryo was like having a man on base?? I am so happy for you! This is truly great news!!!
I anticipate moving you down on my blog roll--to the other side!

Sue said...

I'm with Sky- I've been DYING for an update!!! I am so happy for you! It is incredible to see that little heartbeat! What great news. I know we all have to stay "cautiously optimistic" but ENJOY IT MAMA!!!!

Kris said...

I am so glad that everything is looking good for you. I have been reading your post for awhile now. Congrats on the heartbeat! It is the best site you will ever see until your baby is placed in your arms!:)

coolcapmom said...

Happy tears for you and Alex again today. What a beautiful, beautiful picture!

Not Your Aunt Bea said...

Congratulations, mama! So very, very happy for you. Isn't that flicker of a pixel on the screen the most beautiful thing in the world? Babies are truly miracles and you now have yours.

Sandra said...

Hey cuz - - I've been reading your blog, hoping and praying for this kind of news for you! I'm so happy for you and Alex!

bawagner said...

Can't tell you how wonderful this news is!!! GOD is soo good and our prayers for this little miracle have been answered! I know it has been hard but it is in God's time not ours. I think he is always trying to teach us.

We love you and Alex so much and want only good things for both of you. I have tears of great joy for you and Alex.

Lots of Love, Aunt Barb
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

MamaSoon said...

Gorgeous little bean you got there. CONGRATULATIONS!

Phoebe said...

Yaahoo!! That is so awesome! I'm glad beta hell has turned into beta heaven! Congratulations my friend, and I'm wishing you and uneventful next 8 months!

onwardandsideways said...

FANTASTIC! Christina, I am so happy for you!! Congratulations to you and Alex. Thank you so much for your kind words this morning. And it looks like we just might be sharing that due date. I'll hang in there if you will... lol

Lost in Space said...

Such great news!!! I love your "holy shit" response....what else is there to say? (-;

Congrats!!

mekate said...

I am SO HAPPY FOR YOU! Such a beautiful picture and such a great thing to know to be true. Congratulations, truly-- awesome and wonderful news.

Anniep said...

Wooo Hoooo!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!

Anonymous said...

Holy shit, is right! I am SO excited for you and Alex!! Seeing a heartbeat is a really big deal. All my docs told me that once you see the heartbeat, your chances are really good that things will progress normally. I am hoping and praying and sending out all the good energy in the world to keep this pregnancy going for you, in whatever way your body naturally wants to do it!

So excited!
Sharon

Jill M. said...

OMG!!! Congratulations! You got yourself a little miracle there. I'm sure you give many women hope that are in low beta hell. Can we celebrate now? So happy for you!

Soapchick said...

Congratulations. I'm very happy for you and hope that heartbeat comforts you.

mekate said...

Hope all is well and just stopping in to say hello.

Me said...

CONGRATS!!!